#Online dating can be tricky. You never fully know (or trust) who you are connecting with. Sure, the man can be charming,
have an attractive picture and claim to be one of the cast members from the original RENT. But how can you know for sure? The #profile can be the window of truth. Likes, dislikes, 5 items you can’t live without (the moment I see “my cat” I send a message), favorite movies and books (the “I don’t read much” sends up a red flag for me), and my favorite, the “What I am Looking For” section. Tell me, what are you looking for, mystery man? A casual hook-up, a girlfriend, a partner in crime, a wife, or just a pen-pal? The profile is the list of truth and the key to charming yourself into my life. One wrong move (“I LOVE the movie #Wedding Crashers!”…ehhh) and you are out of the running.
After a couple weeks of not hearing from the fellas I got a bite. #Mr. Diversion intrigued me.
Aside from the over usage of “…” I found him interesting. What exactly is a play partner in crime? Oh, of course I know what a play partner in crime is. How could I not know? I respond…“Well aren’t you an interesting person. You have peeked my interest yet I’m hesitant to respond. However, here I am. It appears to me you are seeking more out of life, which I guess really is the point of this website, in the most literal simple sense.”
He responded:“Morning Jayne … indeed I am. As are we all I guess. To the best of my knowledge .. this is a one way trip so we need to make the most of our opportunity! So how are you doing today? And I have to ask … did you get a chance to read my profile? And do you have any burning questions for me?”
Mr. Diversion and I exchanged several emails back and forth, which quickly became sexual. He wrote with experience and fantasy, something I like to dabble in. No, I’m not a whore by any means. I don’t sleep around, but I like to pretend I do. In addition to getting my jollies by talking to this fella, I was using him for the greater good of writing material. I knew he would make for an interesting cocktail story. Maybe you’re thinking “But Jayne! What makes this smutty guy different?” Hold your horses, I’m getting to that part! Mr. Diversion has a dark secret, which isn’t a secret at all. Remember the “burning questions” part of his introduction? Well, I looked over his profile after the first exchange and was shocked to what I found. Mr. Diversion is MARRIED. Capital M married. Not even divorced or experiencing an unhappy marriage. To further add to the intrigue, Mr. Diversion is 55 FUCKING YEARS OLD. 55! Who is this old married fart and why did he approach me??
His answer:“I’m on the prowl for a sex buddy. But lets face it … you just can’t go out and jump into bed with just anyone and come away feeling fulfilled. I think there needs to be more of a connection than that. Even just a tenuous one like what I’m hoping to find is better than nothing. Yep, I don’t get very many replies … and when I do they then tend to be rather … how do I say …. vindictive, profane and downright ugly. And I kind of expected that to be the case. It does go with the territory I guess. You seem to have a forward thinking personality … or a least a curiosity about some of us other earthly inhabitants. That’s a good thing! Don’t loose it as it will serve you well!”
Of course I was flattered. I am very forward thinking when it comes to sex and dating. I give men a chance that would otherwise be shut down by an old-fashioned gal. I entertained the thought of hooking up with Mr. Diversion. I shamed a lot of women who fight sexual deviants on this topic. I was the other woman even without sleeping with this man. I felt disgusted with myself but I couldn’t stop. What started as casual flirting turned into what I called “#Fifty Shades of Grey Dick.” … because he’s old. Get it?
Mr. Diversion offered up this little gem:“As two kiss … the submissive one melts and melds into the dominant partner. As passions rise … it becomes the responsibility of the dom to lead the sub in the dance of lust.”
Are you blushing yet? Hopefully you know very well about “doms” and “subs.” Those are the roles sexual partners take on in a relationship. I confessed to being a sub and Mr. Diversion said he is a dom. We discussed the roles and how important it is to have a dom who makes you feel safe. Our conversations ranged from informative to downright dirty. Please don’t lose respect for me! IT’S ALL FOR THE SAKE OF JOURNALISM!… she tells herself.
I will not continue to go into the nitty gritty of it all, unless you demand it. Mr. Diversion laid out our first meeting and how it would play out. It was incredibly detailed and raunchy. I’ve never read Fifty Shades of Grey but I imagine it to sound an awful lot like our conversation…only censored. That’s right. I think our conversation was wilder than the popular housewife smut.
In the end I turned down Mr. Diversion’s proposal to hook up. I do not want to sleep with a married man, even though pop culture sets that scenario to sexy music and fulfilled fantasies. Our conversations quickly faded after he realized he would not be getting any.
I am left with memories of breaking the rules and not giving a flip. I am also left with the hilarious mistake Mr. Diversion made when he said he would provide me with an incredible “organism.” Oh, Mr. Diversion, you are my knight in shining armor.
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